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Grief is for Grieving
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10 years ago my heart shattered about life. The biggness of the world. My belonging in this world. The cruelty of human beings. The level of numbness that human beings use to survive in this world. Humans exploiting life, animals, plants and other human beings. The robotic way of spending a whole life working to make somebody else rich. The frantic zombie-like chase of money and success. I didn't know then, but I was grieving. A grief that was bigger than my being. An ancient grief that extended past my lifetime. I had no place to go with this grief. I tried. Everywhere I went I found a big empty whole of nothing. An empty space. No friends, no village, no protocols, no clarity, no guidance. Which lead me to internalizing and repressing my grief. "I have to be strong for my family" "I can't grief because there's nothing to hold me" "Everybody will think I'm crazy" "I will be sent to the hospital or to the psychiatric" This kind of resistance leads to major suffering and insanity. When it comes to grief, modern culture has a big brick wall saying you can't go there. Because grief means you need to feel. And if you feel, it threatens the glue that holds modern culture. Grief is messy. Grief is non-linear. Grief is unknown how long it can last for. Grief is part of your emotional body's intelligence. Grief is not for processing, dysecting, analyzing or understanding. Grief is for grieving. Grief is an essential process of regenerative culture. More and more edgeworkers and cultural creatives for feeling and grieving. Yet, every circle and geographical location has specific needs. Are you holding on to unexpressed grief? How does grieving go in your regenerative culture? Who in your village is holding space for grief? Love & Grief, P.S.: A friend in my close circle recently lost his dad, which opened up the necessity for a held space for grieving. He knew exactly what he needed, a space held in nature with other people from his village where he can be by himself but not too far from the group. If you want to learn more about it or join this journey, reply to this email to let me know. |
Jorge Pedret
I'm a Gameworld Builder who resiliently explores the edges of culture, parenting, relationships, and personal development. Receive my news, updates and events directly in your inbox.
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